10 Things To Be Happy About!

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The other day was classed as ‘International Day of Happiness’ day. I didn’t know there was such a thing, but let’s be honest, these days there is a day for practically everything. It’s crazy that we are celebrating some of these things, but I think a day of happiness is just what our world needs, especially right now.

We all deserve a good laugh and to have a huge smile on our faces every now and again! Hands up if you all agree, or I will pretend you all have.

So this had me thinking, what am I actually happy about. I have been all smiles recently, and beginning to love and appreciate my life, so there must be something, or maybe 10 somethings (hopefully).

10 Things I Am Happy About

  1. Being around positive people who continue to push me, and help make me a better person.
  2. Starting to feel better in myself, and having more faith in my own abilities. We are all capable of much more than we think we are. Just saying.
  3. Getting to a point where I start laughing and not being able to stop myself. It’s a great release and becomes very infectious that others around end up laughing with me. I reckon I could laugh myself some great ab muscles.
  4. Seeing everyday as a new day, with new opportunities, and faith in what is to come. It’s a fresh start. Yesterday is gone, today will pass by and tomorrow will be another chance to be and do something awesome!
  5. Following on from that last one, I would say knowing now that my past does not define my future, nor should it. That’s a good lesson. Leave the past in the past. I guess that’s probably why they call it the past.
  6. Seeing people doing something for others, or you doing things for others. It’s such a wonderful feeling to know you are helping someone who needs help, even if it is just something small. Well it may seem small, but to someone else it could make their whole day.
  7. Listening to great music and discovering new songs gives me such a buzz. At the moment I am listening to a lot of 90s R&B, and some absolutely amazing modern Worship tracks.
  8. Pieces of scripture that speak to you and literally manage to highlight what you are going through. The words can quickly make you feel so much better, and lift a weight you didn’t know was there. When in doubt turn to scripture, that’s my new motto.
  9. Blogging and writing will always be two of my favourite things. I know I may not always be the most active, not in the last few weeks anyway, but when I feel inspired I write away and really get lost in my own little literary/blogging world. It’s fun.
  10. You guys! Seriously, you all make me happy. The constant support, especially that with your comments and in and around the social networks, really makes me happy, like you would never know. It’s like having friends I have never met, always being there and knowing what to say. You are truly amazing!

These 10 things continue to make my life now that much better and obviously are not the only things that can make me smile, but what I would say are some of the most important to me right now.

It doesn’t matter what makes you smile. All that should matter is that you do.smile, because it lights up your face, and you never know, could lead to someone else smiling also.

What Makes You Smile?

Chloe Lauren x


So, I Am 20 Next Year?


So as a lot of you know, two weeks ago was my birthday, meaning I am now 19. Another year older, and a year closer to being the big and seriously scary 20. Fun! YAY!

Anyway, I said at the end of that post that I had an idea for a follow up post, one I wasn’t completely sure about, nor did I think I would actually do, but a lot of you were all for it, so clearly I obeyed, and here it is.

These are 20 things I wish to achieve or start doing before I turn 20. I feel as though a few of these are slightly farfetched but you have to dream big, am I right? Go big or go home!

My 20 Goals:

  • Get a proper Job (Currently working on that)
  • Read the bible every night for an entire year
  • Have read the bible fully
  • Read all of the Harry Potter books (Not even read one yet)
  • Pass my Driving Test (Or at least become semi decent)
  • Do more for others
  • Organize a charitable event/campaign
  • Publish one or more of my poems
  • Write in my journal as often as I can
  • Learn a new skill
  • Self Host my blog
  • Redesign my blog
  • Reach 2000 Blog Followers
  • Make a photo diary
  • Get better at cooking/baking
  • Go on a roller coaster
  • Take a leadership role
  • Start a new hobby (A bit vague at the moment)
  • Be more independent
  • Do more of what I love (Just a good thought)

Looking at those now, there are a few I think are achievable and can be done quite easily, but there are others I am nervous about, but at the same, totally excited to try out. This is going to be quite a year.

I will keep you all posted on how I am getting on with them as the year progresses. Wish me luck guys. I am going to need it.

Let’s do this!

Chloe Lauren x

What Do You Want To Achieve This Year?


Letter To Myself – The Reply


A year ago (maybe slightly over), I was challenged to write a letter to my future self, and then a year later, if I wanted to, which clearly I am going to, to give a reply.

Basically I am being asked to just talk to myself, which if I am totally honest is not difficult at all, saying that I do so quite often. I am just worried that I am going to cringe like mad at how I used to write, and just who I was back then.

Cue complete awkwardness from last year…

… Dear Future Me,

I am just going to start by stating the obvious, you’re definitely older, but have you really grown, as a person that is, not height wise, because let’s face it, you are not going to grow any more are you? Sorry for that harsh truth, and so early on in this letter as well.

I hope you laughed at that, rather than just getting annoyed, like you usually would. Don’t roll your eyes at that either, because we both know it’s true.

Over the years you have changed, a part of you has somehow lost the person you once were, and that’s such a shame, but together we can fix that. You have such a great attitude when you actually do what you need to do. There is so much you could achieve. If only you would believe in yourself, like your friends and family have done for all of this time.

There are days where I will still look at myself, and just see what I think to be the most terrible person I have ever known. I just hope in the future you perception of yourself is different, because you know how much pain we have been through feeling that way. I know it wasn’t your fault though. Things happened in our past, but now we just have to learn to keep our pasts where they belong, in the past.

Before I close this letter, I have to remember to remind you to always tell the people you care about the most, that you appreciate them. They have been with you through everything, and I know you care, you have a heart of gold, but it never hurts to tell them wherever possible that they mean a lot to you. Even the smallest gesture would be enough, it doesn’t have to be extravagant.

Finally, I am glad you have finally found somewhere you belong. Blogging has really helped you, and you always look your happiest when you are writing up the posts. It’s lovely to see. Keep it up, because you are doing great.

I will see you in a years time!

Love Chloe.

Yep, definitely as bad as I remember.

I am still really shocked that a year has already managed to fly by since I posted that, and thankfully, a huge amount has changed for me, which means that I can now give a huge sigh of relief, but not until I have done what I am supposed to do in this post…


Dear Me, Myself and I,

It’s been an interesting year to say the least. We have been through a lot. Sort of like a fun roller coaster, which started on a constant loop of emotions, but has now evened off with great opportunities and happy times, although there have been some bumpy moments along the way, but hey, that’s just life.

Yeah, I know, I am so much more enthusiastic, right?

If you would have told me a year ago, I would be sitting here, writing to tell you how much our life would change for the better, you would have called me a liar.

Also, I don’t mean to scare you, but prepare yourself for some shock turns (spoiler alert: you are a now Christian! AWESOME!!!), things you would never have expected and things that are going to change your perceptions and just life in general. They may seem difficult to handle at the time, but are so beneficial to your growth as a person, which yes, you did emphasize in your letter to me a year ago, and yes, I really did listen.

I am really glad you mentioned being there and showing your loved ones, and those who matter most to you, that you love and care about them, because you never know who is going to go, and when. I won’t tell you who, because where you are now (which is in the past for me) in your life, it may completely break your heart, but trust me, it will be ok. I promise you!

You are worth a lot more than you thought, and will continue to do great things, just don’t let your emotions get in the way. YOU CAN DO IT!

Love Your Future Self.

I was expecting that to be so much harder than it was. It was actually a lot easier than the first time I did this. WOW!

I might do this again in a years time, and see where I am then. Hmm. I just impressed myself with a good idea there. Sounds like a plan.

See you all soon.

Stay Awesome!

Chloe Lauren x



It’s that time again. By which I mean…

….IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!!! Cue the balloons and confetti.

Yeah I really was that enthusiastic, up until the moment that I realised that another year has gone fleeting by and I am now a year older.

As of right now, I am officially 19, meaning that this is my final year as a teenager, and a day closer to being the big old 20, which I imagine won’t feel any different, but right now is a terrible thought.



Just look at my little face. It’s hard enough to believe I was ever 16, let alone being 19! It’s weird to think this was less than a year ago, and I am actually wearing the same T-shirt right now. Didn’t notice until after I decided to select that picture. Huh?

Anyway, I am so ready for this next chapter in my life. It should be fun to see how this year treats me, especially now that I am a Christian, and so much better in myself.

Also, I am just so shocked that I am still here blogging. I will admit, It may not always be the most consistent, but I am actually still around, trying to entertain you all as best as I can. I think I deserve a virtual high five for that. Anyone?

I am thinking of doing another post to follow on from this, maybe to do with my presents or possibly on what I wish to achieve before I turn 20. I’m not fully sure yet, but would definitely love to hear your thoughts

Have a great weekend guys.

I know I will. I have a meal to go to on Sunday. I have the greatest friends!

See you soon my awesome second family.

Chloe Lauren x

In Your Face, Fear!

33967063Title: Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway

Author: Susan Jeffers

Dynamic and inspirational, FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY is filled with concrete techniques to turn passivity into assertiveness. Dr. Susan Jeffers, teaches you how to stop negative thinking patterns and reeducate your mind to think more positively. You will learn: the vital 10-Step Positive Thinking Process; how to risk a little every day; how to turn every decision into a “No-Lose” situation, and much more.

Hey! Have you ever felt completely frightened to do something important, and to put yourself out there, even though you knew deep down that it could lead to much greater things for you?

Yeah, me too! Quite often actually.

Fear is something that holds practically everyone back at some point in their life. No one is exempt from it. Not even those who you think are the most confident people in the world, because even they have felt nervous about something.

All you have to do, is figure out how to handle that fear, and use it to your own advantage, as opposed to letting it beat you.

Thankfully, there is a way to do so. Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway is a guide that was first released in 1997, but has now been redone, refined, and re released as one of the books for this years QuickReads selection.

It involves an easy to follow, up to date guide, which allows for us to be equipped for situations that we would have probably avoided beforehand. For me, that was applying for Apprenticeships, which since reading this book, I have done so, and even absolutely aced the phone interview.

In your face, fear!

Also, to gain more insight, the author talks about her own previous experiences, as well as sharing stories of others she has known, including that of her own students. It’s even possible you may find a story that resonates with you on a personal level. Who knows?

I do have to say this though, my mom was right. She used to pester me to read this book, and now that I have, I know it to be one of the greatest and most important books I have ever read, although only 110 pages long. It really makes you feel as though you can beat whatever fears and worries are currently in your way and staring you down.

Seriously, anybody who needs to figure out how to reach that next step in life (and maybe wants to say IN YOUR FACE, FEAR), read this book. Your entire perspective on fear might just change.

Chloe Lauren x

Goodbye My Friend! | Poem

Ok! So you may (or may not) have realised that I have been away from the blogging world for the last few weeks. I haven’t been posting, or commenting on posts, but I have liked a few.

I haven’t really had the time. I am truly sorry for that, but I have good reason.

On the 8th of January, my Nan sadly passed away in hospital.

She was my best friend, someone I spent most of my afternoons with, and although I am happy she is no longer suffering or in pain, I am still hurting and dealing with it.

When my mom was a single parent, and used to work all of the time, I was always with my nan, so for me, I have always been a nanny’s girl if you will. I loved that. She is the reason I love tea so much and watch a lot of shows that old people would enjoy.

No one will ever be able to comprehend, just how much I loved and appreciated her. I am just so glad I had the chance to spend 18 years with her, and be as close with someone, as I was with her. I will never forget that, or take it for granted!


Thanks to my new found faith, I know in my heart that she is ok, and even though it will be difficult for a while, it will get better, because she is always with me. I am going to do whatever I can to be the best I can be, and make her proud.

I just want to finish by saying, losing someone may seem like the hardest thing you will ever have to experience, but you will be ok! Always remember the person for who they were, and what they meant to you. Keep their memory alive, and never forget the things you loved about them.

Also, NEVER blame yourself. EVER! That person would never want that for you. Not in a million years.

Goodbye, my friend. I love you!

Chloe Lauren x

1000 Blog Follower Thank You!


Do you guys even know how great you all are?!?!

We are only 14 days into the new year, and already I have reached a goal I was hoping to reach a bit further down the line.

Today, I achieved my goal of 1000 blog followers.

Yes! You really did read that right.


As you read this, I am probably dancing around or singing to myself. Partly because of this great news, but also because I just do anyway.

I am even considering it my first birthday present, although my birthday isn’t for another month, so thank you! In fact, thanks to all of you for the constant support and positivity over the last year and a bit.

You have all been amazing and I have really loved seeing this team grow.

Oh and by team, I mean the one and only Team Awesome which you are all obviously apart of!

Talking of which, I was thinking about starting a little project to do with that. I might have to get thinking, won’t I? Actually, I might have to get the group back together and enlist the help of the OG’s of my team, AKA Regina, Elm and L.

I personally think 2017 is going to be a year of success. Not just for me, but also for you. Just work hard for what you want, and you will get it.

Nothing is ever impossible! EVER!

Chloe Lauren x

Say Hello 2017 With ‘Hello Life’

25360968Title: Hello Life!

Author: Marcus Butler

Publisher: Headline

Marcus Butler’s irreverent YouTube channel has long combined laughs and comedy sketches with thoughts on more serious issues. What sets him apart from the rest is his ability to mix light-hearted banter with a deep empathy for the problems facing young people today. Thanks to his experiences of family illness, his parents’ divorce, weight issues and catastrophic hair days, Marcus is in a unique position to share everything he has learned about healthy living, relationships and dealing with the daily pressures life throws at us all. Working with journalist and writer Matt Allen, in HELLO LIFE! his part-autobiography, part-self help guide Marcus shares his trademark big-brotherly advice and unveils his roadmap to success for anyone navigating the trickier aspects of modern living.

Funny, cool, fully illustrated and totally readable, this book is the ultimate must-have for fans of Marcus Butler.’

Marcus Butler, is a British YouTuber who most people love, so when I finally heard that the book was coming out, I was so excited. Thankfully, my mom ended up winning a signed copy of the book which I would say is seriously AWESOME! I even ended up reading the whole book in just over a day.

This was last year by the way.

Anyway, from this book you see Marcus has such a vast and astounding knowledge on varying subjects and I really had no idea that he had been through as much as he had. Some people give advice without actually knowing anything about what another person is feeling or going through, but he really does, and because of this, I really felt like I needed to take on board what he was saying.

This book was full of so much insight and ideas on how to live your best life today and be the best you can be. I felt really inspired and actually left the book wanting to change myself and adapt in order to reach my full potential.

He even makes you feel as though you are not alone, as he along with many others have surely felt a similar way or exactly the same as you have. It was comforting and put me at ease, more so than I have been before. Probably one of the main reasons I loved it as much as I actually did.

The final chapters look into his success, as well as how he thinks we can turn things around or work harder in order for us to do the same, in which ever things we choose. The step to step guides within each chapter help to break things down and make it easier to see how each individual goal can actually be reached.

It is a book for everyone who has ever felt anything ever. He is one YouTuber whose book I definitely think is worth picking up and reading.

Chloe Lauren x

A Lot Can Happen In A Year!


There may have been a lot of things to get down about this year, and I truly do mean a LOT! But, for me personally there have been a lot of personal victories, things that if I hadn’t written them down before, I may have forgotten!

After all, a lot can happen in a year, but what happened in my year.

Well, I am glad you asked:

  1. At the start of last year I had about 100 followers, and now I have almost 1000.
  2. I have gained almost 21,000 page views.
  3. Made some amazing new blogger friends. You all know who you are.
  4. Been approached by a few companies to do projects for or with them.
  5. Volunteering at a cafe.
  6. Beating my fear of buses and just public transport in general.
  7. Finding a career I am actually excited about, and pursuing it at college. I have even already completed the first exam. BOOYAH!
  8. Having new bloggers email me and ask for my advice on starting their blogs.
  9. Doing the Alpha course, and finding Christianity.
  10.  I was nominated for, and ending up being one of the winners for blog of the year!

I started off this year very scared and alone (*cough* hence the name of the blog *cough*), but now I see I have come so far.

It feels like only yesterday I was still 17 and frightened of practically EVERYTHING. Now, I am 18 and still terribly afraid, but I have found ways to deal with it, and have a better view of life. And hey, I am still young, and I am still improving and learning. I am bound to make mistakes in 2017, but who really cares. It’s the mistakes that make us human (I must be a super human by now then).  You know what I mean though, right?

Here is to our 2017! Let’s see what happens.

Chloe Lauren x

Love And Loss | Poem


2016 has been a very tough year, but nothing we can’t come back from. We have seen an array of legends leave us, including two just from today. The one that hit me the most though, came in just an hour or so ago.

Carrie Fisher, who plays Princess Leia in what I think is the greatest movie franchise of all time (Star Wars), died just age 60. I am genuinely lost for words. I really have no idea what to say. I actually don’t think there is anything I can say.

Thankfully, I managed to sum up some feelings in this poem:


Never forget how much you mean to the world. You may be one person, but there is a lot you can do.

Carrie Fisher was an inspirational woman, and any one of you could be the same.

Make a difference! Stand out! And from me to all of you, MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU…


Chloe Lauren x