More Than A Half Year Round Up

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I know we are seven months into 2017 now, which is obviously more than half way through the year, but hey, since when have I been conventional? You have to be different, right? Actually, it is also seven months until I turn 20, so it’s great timing, although that has nothing to do with what I am doing now.

I just wanted to share with you what has been going on in my life over the last few months and just do a round up which covers more than just one month.

Starting Up My Instagram Again:

During my holiday to Suffolk I thought it would be a great idea to begin using Instagram as a way to document my life in a photographic form which was one of my goals before I turned 20, but also as a way of practicing my marketing skills to get the job I really want.

If you are on Instagram and wish to follow me, you can. Just click… HERE!

My Baptism

Back in February I decided it was time I got baptised and made my faith official. It wasn’t a quick decision, not because I didn’t want to do it, but because I was nervous to share my testimony and open up my life to others. Afterwards I realised no one was there to judge me, but rather to support me, so when I made the choice, I was all in, well especially when I was under water.

The first song above, No Longer Slaves was the song I chose for the day and is one of my favourite songs. That song as well as the other two there, may be Christian songs but definitely can hit home with just about anyone, especially Thy Will. I actually suggested that song to a friend of mine who is in a tough situation, and even she said she could relate. Give them a go!

Job Searching

goodbye 2016,Hello 2017

This one is really difficult, because I am seriously trying to get a job. It’s a wonder my head hasn’t exploded yet. I feel more than frustrated right now.

I have had some good moments and then some not so great moments. Those moments in particular make you feel demotivated and really make it more of a laborious task than it was before.

Obviously it isn’t the easiest thing in the world. We all know that. If it were, I don’t think anyone would be unemployed. Well, maybe some!

In a way, job searching is a full time job in itself and something that I need to put more effort into. I have realised now what I have been doing, although getting interviews every now and again, isn’t completely working.

So what do you do? Change your tactics. Take a new direction.

My stepdad has been the voice of reason and gave me a great idea, which should hopefully improve those prospects. I might need to keep you all even more updated on this one, but for now I am just going to keep my head held high and keep going. It may get to me quite often, but positivity and faith is all I need.


See you all soon!

Chloe Lauren x

What Has The First Half Of Your 2017 Been Like?

Exams Are Difficult, But They Don’t Have To Be!

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The end of the school year will quickly be coming to an end in the next few months, which unfortunately means for many of you, it’s exam season. Sorry about that!

This is the time of year where our minds go into full panic mode, but you are not the only one. We have all been there, trust me! However, it doesn’t have to be the most stressful time, does it? Not really, no!

What you need are a tips which will allow for you to relax as much as possible before you have to take that plunge into the deep end. That is where I come in. I have got 6 killer things that you can do, which will hopefully help you at this stage. It’s never too late to feel relaxed. So, here we go.

Exercise It Out

Yeah I started with a weird one. You’re probably sitting there thinking, I am taking exams not getting ready for a marathon. I know, but exercise is actually very important, it releases a feel good hormone called endorphins which should allow for you to relax much easier, and probably much quicker. By the way, did you know that if you exercise straight after a bit of revision, it helps to keep that information in your mind, making it easier to remember? No! Well, you do now!

Get Enough Sleep

Getting enough sleep will relax your body, and aid your brain in remembering the information that is needed. It will also make you more alert, making you much more ready for the day, as well as any exams you may have, or any final studying you might be doing.

Eat A Balanced Diet

This one is pretty rich advice coming from me, especially saying that I used to always miss breakfast which is terrible I know, so really this is just me telling you, wait no, urging you to not make the same mistake I did. Make sure you ALWAYS eat correctly, especially in the mornings, in order to make your mind feel awake and ready for the day ahead. You can’t perform at your best or even relax your mind without it. We all love food. It’s true. It is an integral part of ensuring our bodies work to full capacity, so let’s give our bodies what it wants, a balanced diet.

Listen To Calming Music

There is no point listening to music that is heavy, or has lyrics , because in an exam, you may remember the lyrics rather than the material you have learned, which obviously isn’t good. When I was doing my exams I stuck to listening to what is called ‘Adagio’, particularly in G minor. It really helped, and just in case you want to listen to it also, you can listen to it here.

Eat Dark Chocolate

Dark chocolate has many health benefits which can be used at any time, not just for exam stress, but the reason I mention it here, is because it is able to increase blood flow to the brain, as well as having a positive effect on your mood by releasing endorphins to the body.

Take A Break

People always forget that it is ok to take that little bit of a break. Your brain needs it. It should not be constantly filled with information, especially not the week or even night before an exam. You should do little bursts of revision, and then allow yourself a few minutes to take in what you have done, and get your mind back in the right place. Over doing it could really effect you both in the exam, and sleep wise, which as we just learned isn’t good.

So there we go, 6 small but beneficial things you can do which will help you relax and perform better this exam season. Feel ready? Yes, I knew it. You are ready!

Take those exams down!

Chloe Lauren x

Better Days Are Ahead!

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Do you guys remember a year ago? Some of the things I said, some of the stories I told you? If you do, you have been here for quite a while, and for that I am completely thankful, but what I am trying to say is, those were some rough times. Well, to me anyway.

I remember a time when I would wake up everyday afraid and worried, not sure what each day would have in store for me. I couldn’t even leave my home without someone with me. I felt totally alone and as if I was worthless, so much so that part of me didn’t even want to be here anymore. It was tough, not just for me, but also for those around me.

I know there were moments when I must have hurt them, and drained them emotionally, but it was never intentional. In fact, I know that if I asked them now, they wouldn’t blame me, not for one second. That’s what makes them all so wonderful!

Thankfully, those times are so far behind me. They are just distant memories which will never resurface. A past I have been freed from, mostly through my love for Christ, and the constant help from my extremely supportive friends and family.

I have never felt so happy or full of life. It’s as if my entire heart, mind and soul were made completely anew. A new me was born, along with a new, more positive outlook on life, and I am seeing the good in things I wouldn’t have noticed before. It’s the most amazing feeling I have ever had the pleasure of feeling.

I’m not saying I am free from all things bad, and that life won’t throw me anymore curve balls, but what I am saying is that when I encounter it, I know that I am more well equipped to handle these situations, more so than I would have been before. Do you know what I am saying?

The reason I am sharing this, is because I wanted to let you all know that things may be tough for a season, but they will get better, even if right now you don’t think that could be so. There is always hope and you always have a friend. In a way this was my testimony to you that no suffering lasts forever.

Believe in yourselves and know there is a light that wants to save you from the darkness. Everything will be ok!

Also, I know you may not all believe in the same things I do and that is fine, but I will leave you all with this piece of scripture as I feel it really fits with what I have just been saying and may help you with what you are going through right now.

“Suffering produces ENDURANCE, produces CHARACTER, produces HOPE!

  • Romans 5:3-4

See you all soon,

Chloe Lauren x

10 Things To Be Happy About!

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The other day was classed as ‘International Day of Happiness’ day. I didn’t know there was such a thing, but let’s be honest, these days there is a day for practically everything. It’s crazy that we are celebrating some of these things, but I think a day of happiness is just what our world needs, especially right now.

We all deserve a good laugh and to have a huge smile on our faces every now and again! Hands up if you all agree, or I will pretend you all have.

So this had me thinking, what am I actually happy about. I have been all smiles recently, and beginning to love and appreciate my life, so there must be something, or maybe 10 somethings (hopefully).

10 Things I Am Happy About

  1. Being around positive people who continue to push me, and help make me a better person.
  2. Starting to feel better in myself, and having more faith in my own abilities. We are all capable of much more than we think we are. Just saying.
  3. Getting to a point where I start laughing and not being able to stop myself. It’s a great release and becomes very infectious that others around end up laughing with me. I reckon I could laugh myself some great ab muscles.
  4. Seeing everyday as a new day, with new opportunities, and faith in what is to come. It’s a fresh start. Yesterday is gone, today will pass by and tomorrow will be another chance to be and do something awesome!
  5. Following on from that last one, I would say knowing now that my past does not define my future, nor should it. That’s a good lesson. Leave the past in the past. I guess that’s probably why they call it the past.
  6. Seeing people doing something for others, or you doing things for others. It’s such a wonderful feeling to know you are helping someone who needs help, even if it is just something small. Well it may seem small, but to someone else it could make their whole day.
  7. Listening to great music and discovering new songs gives me such a buzz. At the moment I am listening to a lot of 90s R&B, and some absolutely amazing modern Worship tracks.
  8. Pieces of scripture that speak to you and literally manage to highlight what you are going through. The words can quickly make you feel so much better, and lift a weight you didn’t know was there. When in doubt turn to scripture, that’s my new motto.
  9. Blogging and writing will always be two of my favourite things. I know I may not always be the most active, not in the last few weeks anyway, but when I feel inspired I write away and really get lost in my own little literary/blogging world. It’s fun.
  10. You guys! Seriously, you all make me happy. The constant support, especially that with your comments and in and around the social networks, really makes me happy, like you would never know. It’s like having friends I have never met, always being there and knowing what to say. You are truly amazing!

These 10 things continue to make my life now that much better and obviously are not the only things that can make me smile, but what I would say are some of the most important to me right now.

It doesn’t matter what makes you smile. All that should matter is that you, because it lights up your face, and you never know, could lead to someone else smiling also.

What Makes You Smile?

Chloe Lauren x


So, I Am 20 Next Year?


So as a lot of you know, two weeks ago was my birthday, meaning I am now 19. Another year older, and a year closer to being the big and seriously scary 20. Fun! YAY!

Anyway, I said at the end of that post that I had an idea for a follow up post, one I wasn’t completely sure about, nor did I think I would actually do, but a lot of you were all for it, so clearly I obeyed, and here it is.

These are 20 things I wish to achieve or start doing before I turn 20. I feel as though a few of these are slightly farfetched but you have to dream big, am I right? Go big or go home!

My 20 Goals:

  • Get a proper Job (Currently working on that)
  • Read the bible every night for an entire year
  • Have read the bible fully
  • Read all of the Harry Potter books (Not even read one yet)
  • Pass my Driving Test (Or at least become semi decent)
  • Do more for others
  • Organize a charitable event/campaign
  • Publish one or more of my poems
  • Write in my journal as often as I can
  • Learn a new skill
  • Self Host my blog
  • Redesign my blog
  • Reach 2000 Blog Followers
  • Make a photo diary
  • Get better at cooking/baking
  • Go on a roller coaster
  • Take a leadership role
  • Start a new hobby (A bit vague at the moment)
  • Be more independent
  • Do more of what I love (Just a good thought)

Looking at those now, there are a few I think are achievable and can be done quite easily, but there are others I am nervous about, but at the same, totally excited to try out. This is going to be quite a year.

I will keep you all posted on how I am getting on with them as the year progresses. Wish me luck guys. I am going to need it.

Let’s do this!

Chloe Lauren x

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Letter To Myself – The Reply


A year ago (maybe slightly over), I was challenged to write a letter to my future self, and then a year later, if I wanted to, which clearly I am going to, to give a reply.

Basically I am being asked to just talk to myself, which if I am totally honest is not difficult at all, saying that I do so quite often. I am just worried that I am going to cringe like mad at how I used to write, and just who I was back then.

Cue complete awkwardness from last year…

… Dear Future Me,

I am just going to start by stating the obvious, you’re definitely older, but have you really grown, as a person that is, not height wise, because let’s face it, you are not going to grow any more are you? Sorry for that harsh truth, and so early on in this letter as well.

I hope you laughed at that, rather than just getting annoyed, like you usually would. Don’t roll your eyes at that either, because we both know it’s true.

Over the years you have changed, a part of you has somehow lost the person you once were, and that’s such a shame, but together we can fix that. You have such a great attitude when you actually do what you need to do. There is so much you could achieve. If only you would believe in yourself, like your friends and family have done for all of this time.

There are days where I will still look at myself, and just see what I think to be the most terrible person I have ever known. I just hope in the future you perception of yourself is different, because you know how much pain we have been through feeling that way. I know it wasn’t your fault though. Things happened in our past, but now we just have to learn to keep our pasts where they belong, in the past.

Before I close this letter, I have to remember to remind you to always tell the people you care about the most, that you appreciate them. They have been with you through everything, and I know you care, you have a heart of gold, but it never hurts to tell them wherever possible that they mean a lot to you. Even the smallest gesture would be enough, it doesn’t have to be extravagant.

Finally, I am glad you have finally found somewhere you belong. Blogging has really helped you, and you always look your happiest when you are writing up the posts. It’s lovely to see. Keep it up, because you are doing great.

I will see you in a years time!

Love Chloe.

Yep, definitely as bad as I remember.

I am still really shocked that a year has already managed to fly by since I posted that, and thankfully, a huge amount has changed for me, which means that I can now give a huge sigh of relief, but not until I have done what I am supposed to do in this post…


Dear Me, Myself and I,

It’s been an interesting year to say the least. We have been through a lot. Sort of like a fun roller coaster, which started on a constant loop of emotions, but has now evened off with great opportunities and happy times, although there have been some bumpy moments along the way, but hey, that’s just life.

Yeah, I know, I am so much more enthusiastic, right?

If you would have told me a year ago, I would be sitting here, writing to tell you how much our life would change for the better, you would have called me a liar.

Also, I don’t mean to scare you, but prepare yourself for some shock turns (spoiler alert: you are a now Christian! AWESOME!!!), things you would never have expected and things that are going to change your perceptions and just life in general. They may seem difficult to handle at the time, but are so beneficial to your growth as a person, which yes, you did emphasize in your letter to me a year ago, and yes, I really did listen.

I am really glad you mentioned being there and showing your loved ones, and those who matter most to you, that you love and care about them, because you never know who is going to go, and when. I won’t tell you who, because where you are now (which is in the past for me) in your life, it may completely break your heart, but trust me, it will be ok. I promise you!

You are worth a lot more than you thought, and will continue to do great things, just don’t let your emotions get in the way. YOU CAN DO IT!

Love Your Future Self.

I was expecting that to be so much harder than it was. It was actually a lot easier than the first time I did this. WOW!

I might do this again in a years time, and see where I am then. Hmm. I just impressed myself with a good idea there. Sounds like a plan.

See you all soon.

Stay Awesome!

Chloe Lauren x



It’s that time again. By which I mean…

….IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!!! Cue the balloons and confetti.

Yeah I really was that enthusiastic, up until the moment that I realised that another year has gone fleeting by and I am now a year older.

As of right now, I am officially 19, meaning that this is my final year as a teenager, and a day closer to being the big old 20, which I imagine won’t feel any different, but right now is a terrible thought.



Just look at my little face. It’s hard enough to believe I was ever 16, let alone being 19! It’s weird to think this was less than a year ago, and I am actually wearing the same T-shirt right now. Didn’t notice until after I decided to select that picture. Huh?

Anyway, I am so ready for this next chapter in my life. It should be fun to see how this year treats me, especially now that I am a Christian, and so much better in myself.

Also, I am just so shocked that I am still here blogging. I will admit, It may not always be the most consistent, but I am actually still around, trying to entertain you all as best as I can. I think I deserve a virtual high five for that. Anyone?

I am thinking of doing another post to follow on from this, maybe to do with my presents or possibly on what I wish to achieve before I turn 20. I’m not fully sure yet, but would definitely love to hear your thoughts

Have a great weekend guys.

I know I will. I have a meal to go to on Sunday. I have the greatest friends!

See you soon my awesome second family.

Chloe Lauren x

Goodbye My Friend! | Poem

Ok! So you may (or may not) have realised that I have been away from the blogging world for the last few weeks. I haven’t been posting, or commenting on posts, but I have liked a few.

I haven’t really had the time. I am truly sorry for that, but I have good reason.

On the 8th of January, my Nan sadly passed away in hospital.

She was my best friend, someone I spent most of my afternoons with, and although I am happy she is no longer suffering or in pain, I am still hurting and dealing with it.

When my mom was a single parent, and used to work all of the time, I was always with my nan, so for me, I have always been a nanny’s girl if you will. I loved that. She is the reason I love tea so much and watch a lot of shows that old people would enjoy.

No one will ever be able to comprehend, just how much I loved and appreciated her. I am just so glad I had the chance to spend 18 years with her, and be as close with someone, as I was with her. I will never forget that, or take it for granted!


Thanks to my new found faith, I know in my heart that she is ok, and even though it will be difficult for a while, it will get better, because she is always with me. I am going to do whatever I can to be the best I can be, and make her proud.

I just want to finish by saying, losing someone may seem like the hardest thing you will ever have to experience, but you will be ok! Always remember the person for who they were, and what they meant to you. Keep their memory alive, and never forget the things you loved about them.

Also, NEVER blame yourself. EVER! That person would never want that for you. Not in a million years.

Goodbye, my friend. I love you!

Chloe Lauren x

A Lot Can Happen In A Year!


There may have been a lot of things to get down about this year, and I truly do mean a LOT! But, for me personally there have been a lot of personal victories, things that if I hadn’t written them down before, I may have forgotten!

After all, a lot can happen in a year, but what happened in my year.

Well, I am glad you asked:

  1. At the start of last year I had about 100 followers, and now I have almost 1000.
  2. I have gained almost 21,000 page views.
  3. Made some amazing new blogger friends. You all know who you are.
  4. Been approached by a few companies to do projects for or with them.
  5. Volunteering at a cafe.
  6. Beating my fear of buses and just public transport in general.
  7. Finding something I actually love and beginning to pursue it. BOOYAH!
  8. Having new bloggers email me and ask for my advice on starting their blogs.
  9. Doing the Alpha course, and finding Christianity.
  10.  I was nominated for, and ending up being one of the winners for blog of the year!

I started off this year very scared and alone (*cough* hence the name of the blog *cough*), but now I see I have come so far.

It feels like only yesterday I was still 17 and frightened of practically EVERYTHING. Now, I am 18 and still terribly afraid, but I have found ways to deal with it, and have a better view of life. And hey, I am still young, and I am still improving and learning. I am bound to make mistakes in 2017, but who really cares. It’s the mistakes that make us human (I must be a super human by now then).  You know what I mean though, right?

Here is to our 2017! Let’s see what happens.

Chloe Lauren x

It’s Christmas (Almost)

We are officially on Christmas Eve and less than a day away from Christmas Day. I am so excitedddddddd.

For some countries, the big day has already arrived, which is awesome, but I am sill finding it difficult to believe it is actually so close now, for well, anyone.

Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick Merry Christmas to you all, and I hope you are all having the most amazing time, and enjoy tomorrow (or today, dependent on where in the world you are).

I guess it’s time to do the final preparations, get the movies on, and dance around in my room (literally) to some festive tunes. Basically just have a ‘jolly good’ time.

Oh and while you are here, I just want to let you know, the competition I am running is still going on. In fact, you can enter right here!

See you all next week!

Chloe Lauren x