Love And Loss | Poem

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2016 has been a very tough year, but nothing we can’t come back from. We have seen an array of legends leave us, including two just from today. The one that hit me the most though, came in just an hour or so ago.

Carrie Fisher, who plays Princess Leia in what I think is the greatest movie franchise of all time (Star Wars), died just age 60. I am genuinely lost for words. I really have no idea what to say. I actually don’t think there is anything I can say.

Thankfully, I managed to sum up some feelings in this poem:

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Never forget how much you mean to the world. You may be one person, but there is a lot you can do.

Carrie Fisher was an inspirational woman, and any one of you could be the same.

Make a difference! Stand out! And from me to all of you, MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU…

…ALWAYS!

Chloe Lauren x

Thank You For The Pain, You Helped Me Raise My Game!

The last few weeks have felt like a weird roller coaster ride, going up and down, and then up and down again. However, as of right now, it seems to just be on the up, a constant incline of exuberant happiness. Is that too over the top? I don’t think so, but whatever. It’s just me trying to share some positivity with you.

I guess I should explain what has been happening then.

As I told you a little while ago now, I had gotten my first job at the library, which I thought was going to be a great opportunity. I was seriously excited, but unfortunately it ended up being terrible for me. Whilst being there I was subjected to bullying from one particular member of staff. I have known her for a while due to being an avid user of the library anyway, so I knew that she could be off with people, but didn’t know to what extent. I guess I do now!

It got so bad that I went to the cafe I work at voluntarily, and the first thing I did was just burst into tears. I decided then and there that I couldn’t return. I have come so far in the last few months that I didn’t want to allow someone to bring me down again.

Yeah. I made that decision. I was strong enough to say goodbye and not let them have control over me. I did that!

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Now time for the good part of my news, something I am pretty proud of.

Well, I have always believed that everything happens for a reason. I hope that doesn’t sound crazy to anyone. I just like to think that way.

Anyway, at first I was a bit on the edge thinking about what the reason for what recently just happened to me was, but now I realise it was obviously for the experience for me to grow from, but also to allow me to move on and push myself into something that I actually wan to do with my life, which I now know is…

…ACCOUNTANCY!

My mom casually brought it up a week ago now, and something just clicked and I knew it made sense for me. I ended up finding a college course for it, which I got for free due to being 18 (bonus), which I can then progress with through the next few years, including the level 4 which is the equivalent of university level.

I am seriously over the moon right now (not literally) because I finally feel as though I am on the right path. I have finally found my place and what I actually want to do. It’s a great feeling, and I can’t wait to see where it takes me in the future.

I realise now why they say thank the people who hurt you. They always end up helping you to know how not to end up, as well as push you to strive for success. Show them that they haven’t effected you, but have made you a stronger person. Never forget that. People may hurt you, but all they are doing is improving you, and showing the worst in them.

What Positive Steps Have You Taken This Year So Far?

Chloe Lauren x

Life In Focus | Poem

Life is never perfect, nor is it ever going to be the easiest of journey’s for anyone, but that’s fine because nothing that is worth having ever comes easy.

Sometimes (always) we want to take the easy route out of something, whether it is quitting before you’ve tried something (I almost did that recently), or avoiding situations that could very easily lead you directly to where you want to be in the future.

Why are we so afraid of facing tough situations, especially when people we knew, who are older than us, and have been there before themselves, have told us that by enduring these problems, we will come out all the more stronger for it in the long run? We can’t just expect for everything to be handed to us. Working for what we want is not just going to make us stronger, but it will give us a sense of pride also.

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From today, this very moment even, I want you to face something you have been shying away from, because fear is a great asset to have, the best teammate you could ask for. It is the one thing that will push you forward if you don’t give in and let it drag you backwards instead. Use it to your advantage and like a quote my mother always uses: ‘Feel the fear and do it anyway’!

Chloe Lauren x

I Can’t Believe We All Still Do This!

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Society has pushed us into a trap, one where we are being forced into looking at someone and stereotyping them straight away without even actually knowing the person first.

It’s not fair, but you know what?

We are letting it.

Next time you meet someone and are about to think something you shouldn’t, stop, look at yourself and wonder how you would feel if it were you, and that you are more than likely going to be wrong about them.

Give the person a chance. Give everyone a chance.

They say first impressions are important, but I believe every other impression is just as important.

Chloe Lauren x

What You Are To Me! | Poem

Hey! It’s been a while hasn’t it? I am sorry about that by the way. It’s good to see you all again though. I have missed you all. Quite a lot actually. I wonder if you missed me. I’m not sure if you have, but I would like to think so.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I ended up not going on holiday after all. Instead, I have stayed home, to learn to become more independent.

Although I regret not going, I feel as though this week will be good for me. A chance for some real me time, and do some ‘soul searching’ as my mother called it. I think she is right though. I really need this time to figure things out properly, and see if I am able to fend for myself. Obviously one day I will have tom, especially now that I am 18. It was about time I had a go at growing up.

The thing is though, even when you are alone, you are not really alone. Don’t you think? You may live alone, but you will always have people around you as a support system, people who love and care for you. Sometimes it doesn’t feel apparent to you that that is the case, and you may think no one cares, but there is always someone who does. No one is ever on their own. Not now. Not ever!

Life is made of ups and downs,Decisions both right and wrong,Choices are made, Mistakes are inevitable, Never give up hope, Never jump ship,Ride out the storm,And lead the way,Because what we have is down to you.

How are all of your lives going? I am hoping good. Please tell me in the comments so we can have a bit of a catch up. I would really love to know. I feel like I haven’t had the chance to speak to a lot of you in ages.

Chloe Lauren x

There Comes A Day | Poem

Good evening my friends. How are we all? Good? I hope so.

It’s been a while since I have done one of my poems, so I thought it was about time I uploaded one again. I know a lot of people like them.

The reason for this poem is because I am very grateful for all of the opportunities I have been lucky to receive in the past couple of weeks. It’s been a whirlwind, and with the 700 followers, nothing but amazing.

People have told me that good things come to those who wait, and I guess that statement is actually true. For those who feel as though nothing is happening for them, or feel lost at the moment, hang in there. One day things are going to go your way, and you will achieve the success you want. You know why? Because you can.

YOU CAN DO IT!

There comes a day,Where decisions are made, And opportunities are given,Love is found, And hate is forgotten.A day when we can be one,remain thankful through whatever happens,And never give up on the life we have now.(1)

Also, I would just like to apologize for not being the best with my blogging schedule recently, but I will definitely get back into the swing of things as soon as I can, but for now just bare with me please. I promise things will get back to normal very soon.

You’re ALL the greatest!

Chloe Lauren x

Life Can Be Confusing Sometimes! | Poem

While we wait for August, let’s make it through July. Actually, I  wanted to take this time to just think about this year so far. We have been through 6 months of 2016 already, although it doesn’t feel like that long at all.

To me it could easily still be February or March. It seems we are hurtling towards 2017 at about 100mph, and that is extremely terrifying, because it makes you think that our futures are soon to be the present. I am 18 now, but what will I be doing in another 5 or 10 years, or even next year for that instance.

Trapped in this box,No one to hear me yell out,My fears and thoughts seeping through,The old me lost, Filled with doubt.Trapped in this box,No one to understand,My life and youth draining away,(1)

Do you have a plan or any goals for that far ahead in time? I don’t. I probably should, but it didn’t occur to me that I should until recently. I just don’t want to be in my 20s and still wondering what I want to be doing with my life, or living with my parents for that matter. I want to live and do things my way, without being unsure of what I actually want from life. Do you know what I mean? I hope you do.

Chloe Lauren x

The Black Dog | Poem About Depression

Hey Guys,

As you know, recently I have been reading a lot of books to do with Mental Health, including a few about the idea of being depressed, which are told in a way which treats depression as a sort of ‘Black dog’. This idea of the black dog originated back to Winston Churchill, who named his depression in that way.

It’s a clever way to look at such a heavy subject such as this one, and therefore I was thrilled when the books were an easy read which dealt with it very well. They actually come as a series, showing what it is like to live with depression using illustrations which really bring you closer to how a person suffering would feel, as well what it is like to support someone with it.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dr

Obviously, this poem is me putting myself into someone elses shoes, someone who has perhaps just realised they have depression, so their mentality would be that there is nothing they can do about it, but trust me when I say, there is, and you can get out of it. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but you will. All it takes is one step forward, and you are on your way. Even if you do go backwards slightly, you will never be back at square one. It will just mean you will find another way to reach the end.

Chloe Lauren x


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I Wish You Could See | Poem

Hey Guys,

I picked up another one of those reading well books today, this time one about body image, because that is something I struggle with. One of the first activities says to describe your body image issues using a creative method of your choice, so I chose something I obviously enjoy, poetry.

I got the inspiration for this particular poem from how people continuously tell me that I look pretty, but I never seem to believe them, no matter how much they try to convince me that I do. I wish I could see it too, as I am aware other people in my shoes wish they could also.

I see you,A girl who strives for beauty,But only manages to notices the imperfections, Not realising, That is the beauty you so desire.

Although I do have problems with the way I look, I do love my eyes, because they are green, which is a rare occurrence according to the percentage of people who have that colour eyes. Not only do I love them, but other people do also, which I appreciate.

What is your favourite feature of yours?

Chloe Lauren x


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My Life Is Like A Poem

Hey Guys,

There are moments when we all have doubts when it comes to our own lives, but what we need to remember, is we are in charge of how each of our own lives works and runs, and no one else. No one should have the power to control you or tell you what is right for you. They can help, but not take over, because in the end, it is all down to you!

Trapped in this box,No one to hear me yell out,My fears and thoughts seeping through,The old me lost, Filled with doubt.Trapped in this box,No one to understand,My life and youth draining away,

You may not believe it yet, but you can and will win. Just believe in yourself. It is there, the strength you are looking for, is there.

Chloe Lauren x


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